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by admin
There have been a lot of tears this time and throughout Matt has been utterly perfect!
He truly is an incredible man and I am so, so lucky to call him mine, there have been too many down days this time and I just wonder if it is me subconsciously protecting myself from a further failure. I know he is just as fed up with injecting me, as I am being injected, I mean, look at the bloody sharps bin for Christs sake.
Mid afternoon, i had bad cramps, something I have had pretty much all the way through but when I went to the loo I got the shock of my life to see very dark brown spotting. I felt hot with terror and so immediately googled like a woman possessed and found a zillion conflicting reports, in most cases it seems very normal and can even be a good sign. In the end there was nothing else for it, I emailed P, she answered within 5 mins........ It was a Sunday for goodness sake, the woman is incredible. She said there was nothing to worry about, to stop taking the aspirin and she thought that this was a GREAT SIGN.
Call them squinters if you will but there they were in all their glory
Someone said to me yesterday, who was off out to Belarus to help with the cancer victims of Chernobyl (something he has done for the last 23 years) “all we can give them is hope and hope is free”, he of course made me cry.
I leave this post, for now, with a wonderful quote from an American Actress and Comedienne, who sadly lost her battle of cancer at the end of the 1980's:
“I wanted a perfect ending. but now i've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end.